seriously, i should just die.

seriously, i should just bang myself with a gun and die.
or maybe just disappear from this world, his life.
i don't deserve what i've now.
i'm just that irresponsible and stuff.
firstly, i lost something.
then secondly, i went out with someone without telling in advance.
someone stab me please.
or slap me to make me awake.
FML hard. seriously.






i'm sorry my dear.
i knew telling you was right.
if i didn't tell you just now, i won't forgive myself even more.
i hate meyself.
for everything that has happened.
you sacrificed so much for me and yet i didn't tell you in advance.
but really, it was last minute.
it wasn't intentional or anything.
i won't go out alone with him anymore.
sorry my dear.
i love you only and no one else.