can you promise me a no?

sometimes life is just so contradicting.
some people live for living.
some yet wants to die.
some even grumble about what they have.
and some, learn to cherish while they have the time to do it.
well which one do you think you belong to?


i'm kind of going to school with a heavy heart and clueless mind everyday.
imagine having to know what's the 'wrong' things that your dad/mum did outside.
or your poor elderly grandparents having to clear the debts for your useless parents?
this post might be a little emotional, but i can't help it though.
does having so much money really mean that much to a simple life?
i just want a family which leads a normal and simple life.
although i admit i don't have a perfect family, but at least i've grandparents that care.
a dad that supports the family as well, and a aunt who's 24/7 here.
but why are there still so many fucking problems rising one after another?
crying doesn't solve anything, i know.

life is just so....UNEXPECTED.
you may not know what's going to happen of you the next day.
like me, i may just faint any minute on the way out of the house to school tomorrow.
learn to cherish is a good deal to begin with.
miracles might happen,  it might not even happen.
great deals are out there for you to catch, depending on whether you catch it or not.
but some just no matter how hard/ how much effort they put in things just go out of hand.
rainbows come after rain, but why not for my family?
if given to me, i would gladly have my grandparents around me with my dad and my twin living the most simplest yet loving life ever.
all i want is that, but who knows?
things just can come like huge waves that just hit you and make you fly.
and the cycle just go on and on, you might not even realise it.
but i do.
kay, in conclusion i'm just trying to say love while you can, learn while you live, cherish while it is gone.
kay nights, shall turn in now.
bye world! :-*